Procrastination, anxiety and all that

 It's always weird how our brains work. We get worried over ridiculous things and the grey matter won't let go. Sinks its proverbial teeth into the idea/fear and just shakes and shakes, with drool getting everywhere until you're frozen with indecision.

When, in the end, it didn't even matter. Fears are unfounded, the disappointment you were afraid was going to come, didn't. I like making things, but my fear of it not being good enough always keeps me from offering these things to others. There are so many other talented people out there, and I LOVE buying their things, I love wearing and showing off their things. And I like when I have an idea, I like that I know mostly how to make it happen. But the impostor syndrome is heavy. I envy anyone who knows their worth and doesn't have to have it pounded into their heads that it's ok, it's good, it's 'just fine'. 

Honestly, I'm tired of exhausting myself with these silly emotions that hold me back. Breaking free is the hardest part, isn't it. I worked so hard to get somewhere, so many years ago and it all came to a screeching halt and I've been clawing my way back to just a portion of that feeling ever since. I'm also afraid of failing to continue. I fight myself so much, daily that the attempt to hold oneself accountable is sometimes the entire battle and I still end up getting nothing done. 

What a vicious circle. 

So, today I vow to stop punishing myself (so much, I'mma try... Ok ok, I promise I will try to stop ) I'm going to try to enjoy my ability. I'm also going to make sure, to let all of the people I appreciate, know that I do, (so, so much) and then I'm going to go put up some more shelves for the craft room.

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In the meantime, enjoy this pretty, pretty picture I took this morning. The base skin is Deetalez' new Kayla skin (Celtic) and I just LOVE those Kayla addon eyebags. (I'm a sucker for eyebags even though my IRL ones aren't as pretty) I'm probably going to try using them on all my favorite skins from here on out. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Deetalez
Kayla skin EvoX (Celtic)
Deetalez Addons
Sunkissed
Eyeshadow tintable
Contouring
alt eyelid
eyebags
Button Nose
Freckles
Realface
Other Layers
Cazimi Kissable Lips EvoX
Cazimi Nemesis Eyeliner
Cazimi Vanilla Subtle Eyeliner
Cake Inc Puff Love Blusher EvoX
Swallow Deetalez Celtic Ear layer
Song Cherri Mint Eye (BOM)

LittleFish Piercings
Desire
Iris
Swallow
Pixie Gauged S Ears
Earrings Pixie Gauged S01
Other Items
Lelutka Gaia
Magika hair Oats
Static Geodemon Horns (Ultrarare)

Be beautiful, experiment wildly and without fear. And always remember, Make a copy!
Love each other, care about one another;
Much love, Lumi 

I stand with:
BLM, PRIDE, UKRAINE